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My therapist tries to encourage me to seek satisfaction in nonsexual relationships, but they feel empty to me. While I can fantasize all day about casual sex with random people, I know from experience that casual relationships make me feel unsafe and insecure. The way I think about it is: Friendships are satisfying when you can share your deepest insecurities with another person and feel seen and accepted for who you are.

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